My Secret, Hidden Notebook

I don’t want to put myself
or anybody else
up on a pedestal
or use any other metaphor
for what I by no means
am wanting to do
we’ve all experienced
the confusion
and the ebbs and flows
we’re navigating this process
as we go
so I don’t want to fault people
for asking questions
or to fault people
for sometimes going
into these valleys
for there again
I’ve been there by myself
and having said all the things
I have
I just want to express
to you all
how grateful I am
and again I am not trying
to put myself up
on any pedestal
but you can’t unsee
what you’ve seen
and looking back
on my journey
our journey
and how it all came together
it all kind of seems
like a dream
in a lot of ways
somewhat surreal
but my journey became
kind of like our journey
and I’m forever greatful
for that
and humbled by it
and as time goes by
things get normalized
and things you used to marvel at
you just kind of take for granted
but there’s a fire in me
that needed expression
and I never stopped searching
and at the end of the day
that was my savings grace
and maybe thats why
Ive been given
such a platform
I’m just the vessel